Youngstown is #1 Again!

Not what you think.... Unless you follow and keep track of the record for which city has the most murders per Capita. Then you would know that with the 4 new murders here Monday, that Youngstown has taken over the number 1 spot... Once again.. 2001, 2002, and now 2011....

I really don't like it here. I always feel so uneasy. I miss my parent's farm :( I love the wide open spaces and the clean, fresh air. The city smells.... especially when it rains. I can't wait to move out of here, and I can only hope it will be within the next year.

I guess I am just feeling depressed. Money is REALLY tight right now, and I have been looking for a job non-stop for the past two/three weeks. But there is nothing here. Mainly because Youngstown (once again, it's SOOOO wonderful) has a 50% unemployment rate... FIFTY PERCENT!!!! Columbus only has 7%!! This place is horrible. That alone is depressing enough that it is so difficult for me to find a simple job and I have TWO college degrees.

And I miss my dog...

I met my mom for her to take him so we can have a straight shot down to Columbus tomorrow night for Matt's friends coming home party. It's a surprise... And if we would have dropped Chewy off tomorrow, it would be a 4 hour drive instead of the 2.5 hour drive.... I guess going straight down 71 would cut 2 hours off the drive time than if we went down to my parents (2 hours) to drop off Chewy, then to Columbus (2 hours). So yeah....

*sighs* I hate moments like this where you are so down in the dumps/depressed, that all you want to do is cry, and I mean cry really hard. Nothing is physically wrong with you. You're alive and healthy... But something just feels wrong. I never want to get out of bed and when I finally do, I just lounge on the couch. Then when it's time for bed, I'm exhausted. Tonight I was extremely tired at 8pm.... I don't know what is up with me...