To Wish or Not to Wish ....

So... Tuesday it will be One Month for Matt and I. And we've pretty much agreed upon not trying to get pregnant for awhile because we want to travel to multiple places and have fun before we bring children into the world.

However, I've been baby crazy for WEEKS now! Worse than ever! It's like, almost every time I talk to my best friend, I say at least one thing about babies! When I have down time at the apartment, I watch A Baby Story or Bringing Home Baby... and then I look at baby clothes and cribs and strollers whenever we go out... I read all kinds of articles on pregnancy and babies....

I'm supposed to get my period Tuesday. Which, I doubt it'll come that day because for the past few months, I've been about a week/week and a half late. I think maybe the stress of the wedding had a lot to do with it, but my period has NEVER been on the day its supposed to be. Even when I was on BC, it was 3 days late.

Here is when the "do I wish or not wish" thing comes into play...

Yesterday, I noticed VERY light spotting... like, I never spot days before my period comes. MAYBE the day or night before, but not days. And it was sooooo light. Then it was gone the rest of the day. Then today, it was a little brighter, but that was it. Just that one time I've gone to the bathroom. Every other time, there is nothing. And I know spotting happens both times: 1) before your period comes, and 2) sometimes when the fertilized egg implants to the uterine wall...

So I'm like, do I wish that I could be pregnant? Everyone would thing that it's too soon. I might agree that too, but I want a baby so bad! I know, it's not just like a doll, it's a little human being. A lot of responsibility. Or do I wish that I'm not pregnant, that its just my period?

*shrugs* I guess we'll just wait and see next week if I've had a visitor by then or not...

I'll let ya know!