Bachelorette Party = FAIL

So, last night was the bachelor and bachelorette parties. I ruined them. Both. We are out a best man and an usher and his friends hate me. I've been crying and sobbing and I called to apologize to the best man saying I didn't understand things and everything, and he literally hates me. He told Matt he hates me and he doesn't approve of me and he cannot approve of our marriage and it will never work out.

A lot went on, and I don't have time to get into it tonight, but I think bachelor/bachelorette parties should be banned. Nothing good ever comes from them. I trusted my fiance. his friends took him to hooters... lovely, where girls degrade themselves by flaunting their boobs and butts in tight tight clothing. They, i don't know if it was his friends or the waitresses, made him wear a t-shirt that said something about a last night of "freedom"... like by marrying me, he is becoming a salve!!! AND they made him wear a ball and chain. I feel that was too far over the line, embarrassing, and a mockery of marriage.

He kept calling me, and I texted him.... and his friends all hate me because I "wouldn't leave him alone." One said to Matt that he felt sorry for me, then it later turned into hatred. At first I thought it was the alcohol talking.... but no. They left Matt at one place, because I showed up there. So he obviously had to ride with us, cuz we were two hours from home. So we took him back to his car and then i dropped him off in Cambridge because he wanted to try to fix things with two of the people in the wedding. I wouldn't even call him a best man anymore. I had ONE night where I wasn't like myself, and you judge me on THAT night when you've only met met TWICE Matt's and my entire relationship. You know what made me feel crazy and out of control?!? No, You DON'T because you don't understand women and how they work! Matt forgave me right away, as soon as I apologized. And you wanted me to patch things up by letting you guys go and take him to a strip club and have me pay for my fiance to get a lap dance?!?! Real adult, real mature. Way to be a MAN.

Matt had called him, and I asked to talk to him to apologize. He kept saying all kinds of stuff to me, and I sat there and took it. But now, I am FURIOUS. You don't KNOW me. You don't see how I normally act. yes, I had ONE bad night, and you judge my whole personality on that ONE night. I shouldn't have let you talk to me that way. I shouldn't have let you accuse me of breaking up all of Matt's friendships. I shouldn't have let you make me feel ever worse about myself. Again, way to go be a man.

I have to leave for church now. Matt didn't stay with me last night, but I'm supposed to pick him up after church... I'll see if I'm chased off the guy's property.... If you don't hear from me.... then worry.